Future plans

I'm so excited for my possible future plans. Wish March would hurry up so my love can come home.

I'm planning on joining him where he is being stationed next. Just don't have a date. Very excited about it.

No more medifast

So I stopped doing medifast, it was too expensive. so I now will be trying to do it on my own. I am now 193, will try my best to keep on losing more weight. Have 50 more to go. Wish me luck

Woohoo!

As of Friday I am finally under 200 pounds! I now weight 198. If I lose about 3 pounds a week and do it by the time Fox comes home? I would be at my goal weight. Which will be around 155. Might be a little more than that but I should be close to it. I haven't been that small in like 3-5 years, if not longer.

If I do lose all that weight, I'm going to need to buy a whole new wardrobe (I'm already down almost 2 pant sizes). I may keep a few tops if they still fit but everything will be gone lol. Hopefully I will be able to sell my clothes to a consignment shop so I can have some money towards either new clothes or a new car lol.

Update

So I talked to Fox early this morning, and found out he is going to Nevada after all. So once he comes home on leave and we talk about our future, I hope that I can join him there. Will definitely need to plan it right, like have a job lined up and everything. Would like to have a new car before I move with him but we will see how that works out. Excited about this new, possible future. Just hope and pray it all works out.

On a different note, as of Friday of last week I finally hit the 200 mark. Just 55 more pounds to go before I hit my goal weight. Have a little competition with Fox to see who can hit 180 first lol. I think I will beat him but who knows lol.

Medifast update

On Friday I went and got weighed at medifast center and u lost another 4 pounds, so in total I lost 15 pounds in one month! I don't feel any different though some of my clothes do fit loose now. I lost and inch around my arms, thighs, calfs, waist bust and about 4 inches around my abdomen. I'm doing another month and a different program. Hope this new program works just as well.

New

So I now work at A.C. Moore. It's an arts and crafts store, it's about 30 minutes from where I live. It's an OK job. On my second day of work I got promoted to customer service specialist. So I've been training a bit for it.

I get paid weekly so I need to make a budget plan to stick to. Luckily I have food stamps for the next 6 months or so. So I won't have to budget for that.
I started medifast and lost 10 1/2 pounds in the first 2 weeks. I hope to lose about 60-70 pounds. But if I feel comfortable with my body before I lose all the weight I'll be happy.

I talked to Fox yesterday morning. So good to see his face and to hear his voice. I hope to see him in march and will beable to get some time off of work to spend with him. Though this time I will break up the time off, like have off a weekend here and a few days off there.

Update

Fall is finally starting to make an appearance. Almost completely moved into my mother's old room. Still trying to find a job. I've had a few interviews and second interviews but nothing beyond that, unfortunately.

I started doing medifast but it is definitely hard to stick with it. I need to start exercising a few days a week. I just hope this works.

I've talked to my fiance a few times, can't wait for him to come home. Still waiting to see where he is going next.

Im still working on Yule gift ideas but if I don't get a job soon, most likely I won't have any presents for people this year.

Fall

Fall is just around the corner. My favorite time of year!

I'm now unemployed and actively looking for a new job. I've been helping my mom out some with her real estate work and hoping to hear something about a new job soon. Not having money coming in sucks. Also, I hope to talk to my bf soon. It's been awhile since we have Skyped. Missing him like crazy.

I moved up to my mom's room now the my brother and his girlfriend moved out. Still need to clean it up some and move more of my clothes up stairs. I'm even thinking about rearranging the room a bit. Mainly the bed, just changing the direction of it since the cable cord is behind the headboard. We'll see if that even happens. The big difference I'm going to have to get use to is the change of temperature. It's hotter up here than my old room. It feels so weird being above ground again.

Update

So, I've been suspended from work for a week. I go back on Thursday. I was dumb and was looking at cars and on craigslist for a new job or a second job. Now, for the record, I'm not the only one who is doing this. There are other employees that go on Facebook or look up cars, and wedding dresses. I'm not saying it was right but I shouldn't be the only one punished for it. I've been getting applications to apply at. Hopefully I will find something soon.

Been awhile

Been awhile since I've posted anything. Not too much has happened. Ssdd as it were. Im going to be calling this company that I had an interview for in may to see if I can find out anything about if I got the job or not. Part of me thinks I didn't since I didn't get a phone call but doesn't hurt to call. I've been trying to budget my money and I made a budget plan but I have to redo some weeks so im not over my paychecks. Im trying to be debt free by October.
So that's it for now I guess lol

Easter

Happy Easter to everyone who celebrates.

I'm going to meet up with some family and celebrate this stolen holiday. Yes, stolen. If you think I'm wrong, Google it. That is all.

Sad news

Just found out that my mother's boyfriend's father passed away last night. He was a nice, loving, and funny man. He will be greatly missed. May the goddess greet you with open arms and love, Carmen.

My love

Im so lucky to have my fiance. He knows just what to say to make me feel better. I know he will have my back. I just hope he knows that I will do the same. I fall in love with him more each day.

Frustrations

So I've been at my job for about 2 months now and im already looking for a new job, simply because I not picking it up fast enough when I only got a little bit to no training. Also, I need more pay and a guarantee of hours. Im making just enough to pay my bills since I'm not really paying rent. If I plan on getting an apartment by the end of the year, I need a better paying job.

I'm so frustrated that I can't find a job that pays well and is close to me and will give me full time hours. I thought this job was my ticket to getting my life on track but I guess not. I swear I feel like I take 1 step forward and 2 steps back. I hope I find a job soon.

Grandmom

So I just found out the other day that my gmom is in the hospital again. Right around thanksgiving she fell down the steps and cant walk anymore.

Well a couple of nights ago she woke up from a nap and forgot that she can't walk and fell. She fractured her hip and will be having surgery to fix it.

I feel, I guess you could say numb about it. Yes, I feel bad about it but I just haven't broken down and cried. I know if fox was here, and if he held me I probably would let it all out.

:update:

Gmom is doing well, she's home from the hospital finally. They had to do a partial hip replacement. I just hope this will help her feel more in her legs.

First full week at my new job

Had my first full week at my new job. So far I like it, waiting for the busy season to begin. Love the girls I work with.

New job

I finally have a new job. Can't believe I can finally quit home depot. This week is my last week at home depot!

Now I have a few decisions to make, should I save up for a new car or for an apartment or try for both? There is nothing wrong with my car but it is a 97 ford escort and I should get something newer. I just dont know if I can do both. Need to talk about it with fox.

Last night

My sister took me out for my birthday since I didnt get to on my actual birthday. I got pretty drunk since i don't really drink anyway. I had a tequila sunrise at one bar and it was crap couldn't taste any tequila then we walked to another bar and I had a shot of tequila and my sister had a fireball shot. We laughed mostly of the people there. I just felt rather old being there. Most of the people there were probably around my age but I guess since I hurt my back and I'm close to 30 now, it doesn't matter anymore.
Anyway, the last drink I had was Jager and coke, and man did that taste good. Usually I hate licorice but I love this drink.
Now im up getting ready to go meet my mom for lunch and get my car.

Birthday

Today is my birthday. My birthday plans got shot to all hell. Was going out but no one can come or want to come or cant find a babysitter. Now I dont have enough money to go out to do anything. I wish fox was here at least I would have someone who actually wants to spend time with me. Worst birthday ever! :'(

Bad dreams

I hate having these bad dreams, where my fiance and I have a big argument and on the point of breaking up. I always wake up before we do and have a mini panic attack. I wish I could either have him here to calm me down or that I could call him to have him calm me down. This separation is getting the best of me. I think if we had a stronger foundation I think it would be a little better.

We've only spent 2 months together, and it was not two solid months either, in the past 3 years.  I've tried to explain that to him,and all I get is I know. "I know?" Are you kidding me? To make this work we need to spend time together, not apart. I need reassurance from him that everything will work out. I understand that this is the military and I don't have any real say in the matter but come on. If we were married and he gets stationed overseas, I can possibly go with depending on location. I just hope I get to see him soon.

Wedding

So, we have made a decision that we are going to get married at the court house and then have a big bash the next day. Now, I have my dress. I just need to fix a strap on it, then find some shoes to go with it. I need to figure out what type of food to have and who to invite.

Anniversary

Yesterday was my anniversary with my fiance, 3 years and 1 month. Crazy that I've been with him for this long and we've only spent about 2 months in person, and not in a row, the whole time. I hope we can change that soon. I can't wait to do my taxes so I will have some extra money for when he comes home.

Fitness

I've been going to the gym and I weighed myself last night, and I lost about 5 pounds. So happy about that.  I have about 65 more to go.

Spring

I'm so ready for spring. With all the bright colors and the perfume from all of the flowers blooming. I'm ready for warmer weather, and shorts and tank tops. I just hope I have enough time off to enjoy it.

New year, new me

I have made a big commitment to get back in shape. I have one year before my fiancé is home. However, we are planning to get married some time this year. I still have a few things to get for it. Most is just printing it offline. I'm still excited and nervous. I have my dress already, just need shoes and tights. I can't wait to get started planning.