I finally have a new job. Can't believe I can finally quit home depot. This week is my last week at home depot!
Now I have a few decisions to make, should I save up for a new car or for an apartment or try for both? There is nothing wrong with my car but it is a 97 ford escort and I should get something newer. I just dont know if I can do both. Need to talk about it with fox.
My sister took me out for my birthday since I didnt get to on my actual birthday. I got pretty drunk since i don't really drink anyway. I had a tequila sunrise at one bar and it was crap couldn't taste any tequila then we walked to another bar and I had a shot of tequila and my sister had a fireball shot. We laughed mostly of the people there. I just felt rather old being there. Most of the people there were probably around my age but I guess since I hurt my back and I'm close to 30 now, it doesn't matter anymore.
Anyway, the last drink I had was Jager and coke, and man did that taste good. Usually I hate licorice but I love this drink.
Now im up getting ready to go meet my mom for lunch and get my car.
Today is my birthday. My birthday plans got shot to all hell. Was going out but no one can come or want to come or cant find a babysitter. Now I dont have enough money to go out to do anything. I wish fox was here at least I would have someone who actually wants to spend time with me. Worst birthday ever! :'(
I hate having these bad dreams, where my fiance and I have a big argument and on the point of breaking up. I always wake up before we do and have a mini panic attack. I wish I could either have him here to calm me down or that I could call him to have him calm me down. This separation is getting the best of me. I think if we had a stronger foundation I think it would be a little better.
We've only spent 2 months together, and it was not two solid months either, in the past 3 years. I've tried to explain that to him,and all I get is I know. "I know?" Are you kidding me? To make this work we need to spend time together, not apart. I need reassurance from him that everything will work out. I understand that this is the military and I don't have any real say in the matter but come on. If we were married and he gets stationed overseas, I can possibly go with depending on location. I just hope I get to see him soon.
