Fitness day 2

Went to the gym and did 3 miles on the bike, a mile on the treadmill. 15 sets of spine rotations, 30 leg presses. Going to try to keep it up.

Fitness

I just joined back up at planet fitness today, did 2 miles on the bike and a mile on the treadmill, plus a few sets of spine rotation, abdominal extension, and hip extensions, arm curls. Feel pretty good. Hope to keep it up.

Memorial weekend

Happy Memorial Day! Ok, its tomorrow but I'll be working. I want to thank all of the brave men and women fighting to protect this country!

Jealousy

I hate getting so jealous when it comes to my fiancé! Like every time a girl comments or he becomes friends with one on Fb, I get so mad. Like who is this girl commenting on his posts. If I were to ask, he will say its someone he works with and then ask why am I getting so jealous and stuff.
He has never done anything to cause this feeling. He has never cheated on me or anything. I wish I could stop.

Work

So I've been working at home depot for over a year now. Not a bad company to work, I mean yeah there are things I wish were better but overall not a bad company. The people I work with keep it fun and interesting.

Recently, for a few months they have been cutting my hours down to like around 25/week. So, obviously my paychecks were are the low end sometimes. I had to put a note on the desk of the person who does the scheduling, requesting more hours. I wasn't sure if they were going to but they did and approved my request to have a Saturday off. If you've ever been to the hone depot on a Saturday during the spring time, it is a mad house. So, for me to have off is shocking.

So I hope I will be getting bigger paychecks from now on. I don't have many bills, live at home so no rent. I just pay for my cell and car insurance,  then there's gas about every week or so plus food for my lunches.

I am planning on joining planet fitness next week, trying to get in shape for my sailor. I need to lose like around 60 pounds. I'm hoping to lose it or maybe slightly more by next summer cause I know that won't happen this year, though I would like to but trying to be realistic. Wish me luck.

Wedding

So I was just told last night that we are going to wait till next year to get married on Halloween instead of August. Little upset about it only cause I want to marry him now. However, we originally wanted to do on Halloween.
Now he's telling me that hes going to try to get an early out of the military. Don't know how to react to that. Where will he go after he gets out, what job will he have? I love this man but I just don't know what we are going to do. So right now I'm just going to plan our wedding and go from there.

Frustrations

No matter where I'm at or whom I'm with, I always end up feeling like I did in high school.  I'm not good enough or pretty enough. Plus I still picture myself as my old size which is like about 75 pounds lighter. I just can't seem to lose the weight. I quit drinking soda and I don't eat out. It's making me sink deeper into my depression. I hate it.

Mothers day

Happy mothers day to all the moms out there! Especially to those military wives, you do your "job" and then some! We salute you!

Job market

Trying to find a job that pays well and will give me hours is tough. Where I live most jobs are either retail/sales or restaurant unless you have a degree for something. Which I don't.

I have found a possible job opportunity but we will see if I will get it. It is at the community college I graduated from. Its part time but the hours and pay are great. Going to apply for it after twerking my resume up a bit.

Miscellaneous

So the other say I came home to find my room all clean, I was in the process of doing it myself but according to my mother I was taking too long. Like having a pinched nerve and hips not in alignment isn't a good enough reason. Like come on, no one should go in my room but me and those who need to do laundry (I live in the basement, my choice. There is a full bath down there.).

Anyway, I found out that she paid my sister to do it. She doesn't know how I want my room set up to be or what can and can not be thrown away. So, yeah I'm beyond pissed. I can't wait to get away from these people. I'm either neglected or ridiculed, or abused in some way or another. If I could I would move out and not talk to anyone. If I talked to my sister it would only be because of her kids that's it.

I'm done being in this family!