The title says it all. Its hard for me to shop for myself. I use to be a size small/medium and now I let myself be a size large/extra large/extra extra large (depending on the cut) and wear size 14 jeans. I've changed my eating habits but see no change. Joined the gym but stopped going, going to cancel my membership.
I have always struggled with body image issues. So the image in my head of what I look like doesn't match what I see in pictures or the mirror. It makes me hate what I see. I just want both images to match.
Today I went shopping for clothes, for this coming fall. I bought two tops, one for work and one for my days off, and I also bought a new pair of jeans that fit. It was a struggle to find a top that fit in the arms or around my chest, I'm broad shouldered. This time I didn't have a breakdown. If I had thinner thighs, flatter stomach and toned arms I would feel so much better about myself. I know it won't happen over night and i need to work at it. Its just hard when you don't see or feel any results.
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